Hi everyone, you guys are the nicest and awesomest, really. I want to clarify about what I said about my therapist. She is not mean. She is nice, actually, and kind of shy. I think she worries too much about offending me. She is kind of reserved. But I just meant that the focus of our sessions, is mainly on my difficulties. Today, I brought some of that up to her, along with the fact that I feel like a failure and overwhelmed by too many goals. She said she sees a theme with all the goals, so that we could make it just one goal: feeling better (about myself, my mood, etc). I do think she tries. I don't feel very connected to her, but my therapist before her, was pretty amazing, and hard to top. It's true I do feel badly about myself sometimes in therapy, and like maybe she is judging me, but I wonder if it's the fact that she is so quiet and reserved, that I feel this way. I think she is probably not judging me. But she is not really very reassuring either. It's not exactly her style. I have a CBT book on self esteem, and am reading it. So this is my new goal. I will still be working on showing up, and facing fears and stuff, on the side, but my main goal, is feeling better about myself and feeling better in general.

MickeyCheeky, Prefab, and Jennifer, thank you for the support.