I've realised I'm having issues with asking for help when in need. I do talk about being depressed with some of my friends, sometimes, but almost never ask for help when in crisis - feeling very down, self harming, suicidal.
I can't imagine contacting them, telling them that I feel the urge to SH or have suicidal thoughts.

Do you find it difficult to ask for help when in need? If you do ask for help, who do you talk to and how you do it?