Any depending on circumstances. Though the vast majority of the time specific negative beliefs about how others will react to me ensure that the BPD side of things will play the 'detached defender' card so I'll look "schizoid" to most until the negative affect related to those beliefs is in a high state of arousal, then I might reach out to someone looking for them to contradict those beliefs then get shot down because i deserve to be numb or something. At which point I go from "schizoid" to the angriest they have ever seen another human being because I feel I'm being told that I don't deserve to feel, need or be valued as a human being.

Does anyone else have to deal with HPD drugging them when you fight it? It usually feels like some mix of ecstasy and morphine for me and gets worse the harder I fight against it.