So after about two months I'm going to see my t. If you have had time and read my other two recent posts, I have some issues to work out. Mainly getting out of bed and stop feeling sorry for myself. I want to utilize my apartment that I pay 1150 for rent a month. I feel like that's a waste cause I only stay in my room. If you have read my recent and past post is I stay in bed. Sometimes for The Whole day. And it isn't all sleeping I use my iPad and that's about it. I only go to same three sites, here, ok Cupid and Facebook. Ok Cupid is, i Dont know. I talk to girl but get scared they won't like me in real life so when the time comes to set up a date I bail and stop talking to them. I feel like I'm cat fishing them because my pictures are older and I have gained so much weight since then. That's another topic I intend to talk to t about, but I feel now the most important thing is to get out of bed. I am writing this issue so I won't forget. Also my frequent cycles from extremely depressed or feeling good (but still in bed). I think part of the reason I stay in bed is cause my living room is a mess but I can't muster the will to clean it.

Please give me some advice. Anyone.

I know this isn't written well but thanks for reading through.