hi T,

After 9 days I'm still wondering... Why the hell would you call me "stable"?
I'd call myself suicidal, close to a psychotic break and extremly unstable... So. Uhm. I guess I'm holding it together better than I think?


And... I didn't feel relieved after breaking up with my Ex. I've felt so extremly guilty (and still do). I could have done more for him. I should have been there for him. I won't tell you that because you're gonna take it as a reason to talk about him. I don't wanna talk about my Ex. I guess I still love him... I don't want you to destroy that