well it got pretty bad last night. like serious contemplation of ending my life

thank god for seroquels and their sedation effects. they save my life

the voices tell me youre going to so it makes me super upset and paranoid about you.

maybe its good i wont see u for 11 days. when yu come back maybe ill be employed, more stable and no hallucinations, happier. maybe skinnier? but u wouldnt like that . OH WELL

see you later T