All:

Thanks for the reply. I think there are some wonderful suggestions here. As I have calmed down now, I think I can contemplate and reflect on the behavior I exhibited earlier this evening.

I think the onset of emotions and intensity were fast and furious. It was as if my emotions and reactions to others and situations (stimuli) were instantaneous and off the chart. It was as if I was striving to generate a record level of intensity and was trying to provoke a similar response from others to get them to realize that how they treat others must be as important as how they react to me. i think the code word was baiting and the desired effect was to provoke a change in their behavior. I think my behavior was unfair and may have had the opposite effect, esp. with those with whom I have never interacted.

I wanted to provoke change of behavior without harm or perilous effect. I am not so sure now that this behavior isn't perilous or harmful in its own right. i have no intention of doing harm to myself or others (although i may have libeled or besmerched the good citizens of Frederick who were within shouting distance).

It depresses me, when I am creating a self-fulfilling prophecy. I can never have a meaningful encounter with others after I rant and rave. Would you want a relationship with an angry person?

Have a good and restful evening, Mark (Moishe).