I wish your children have a better life than me. Since I was diagnosed with ADD as a child in the 60s, Psdychiatrists here and abroad, have had added diagnoses of Depression and Borderline Personality disorder, etc.
My outbursts and temper:
My father was a strict disciplinarian and had a mercurial temper. I inherited the latter trait from him, along with impatience and poor scholastic achievement and financial management techniques. While these were the undesirable facets of my Dad's personality, my Dad was always there for me growing up and actively involved in maintaining law and order (as a non L/E type) in our neighborhood in the Bronx, NY. -- My mother was a wonderful woman, but she became a nervous wreck because of my father and me.
Treatment:
As a child, I was given Dexedrine and Benadryl and cognitive behavior therapy. I remember being a zombie in the AM and very hyperactive in the PM, after my medications wore off. Academically, the medication did nothing to improve my level of concentration. However, I was less prone to blurting out the answers in class, outbursts and violent behavior. OTOH, I was more withdrawn and loathed interaction with others because i was afraid they would make fun of me or I would do or say something absurd or contrarian.
Post-teen Years:
Since my teens, I have yet to realize the academic achievements or benchmarks I wanted to obtain. I am in my 50s and have yet to complete my Bachelors Degree.
Careerwise, I have had ups and downs. Prior to my twenties, I was unsuccessful with 2 of 3 jobs that I had. I got fired from two due to incompetence. The second job was a runner on Wall Street, I would leave behind Stocks and Bonds at other brokerages and almost lost a large cache of Stocks and Bonds (this led to my firing).
OTOH, I was able to survive 30 years in the Coast Guard although there were times I thought I was going to be kicked out due to poor performance, interpersonal relationships and military bearing. I am on my second career with the Federal Government.
Marriage and Relationships With Women:
I am now married to a wonderful woman, but i got married late in life. Relationships and dating often led to embarrassing situations and low self-esteem up until i met my true love. I had two relationships with women, prior to that, that I look back in fondness (i.e. they lasted more than one evening). Otherwise it was one date or platonic relationships with women I had no intention of pursuing further. The latter relationships were with women, who like me, had low self-esteem and with whom, I had no physical attraction.
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