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Originally Posted by boogiesmash
So yesterday at work was talking to a coworker who had depression and anxiety in her past and was able to overcome it. She emphasizes dbt. I told her I "ambiened texted" a friend and was talking nonsense. I told her I took the ambien at 7ish pm. She told me that's not healthy and need to work out whatever issue I had with not wanting to stay awake.
I have been sporadically taking ambien the past month and half at a moderate use. I think I went through 20-25 pills. There have been times I took it at 7 cause I didn't want to think about my failures, regret, suicide attempt (tried on ambien and painkillers), and being hopeless. I guess I do agree with the fact I self medicate with it and have taken it recreationally.
One of the issues, which I have posted several times, is I stay in bed and usually don't do anything. I guess also add boredom, and I hate to say it, abuse ambien. I do need it for periodic shift work as sometimes I get home early at 2 pm and then have to go in for a midnight to 6 pm shift. So I don't want to get rid of them but to be honest I probably should of only used maybe 10 pills max from past two months.
What do I do? How do I get more active at home and live? Why can't I get out of bed?
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I think you should get rid of Ambien immediately. Considering that you already used it for different purpose, you have to throw it away. Please speak up to your doctor and find a better treatment.
I used Ambien for 3 years, and I thought I could never live without it anymore. I have really bad chronic insomnia since childhood and I feel even more depressed if I stay in bed for a long time. But it's dangerous to your body to take it everyday and continuously.
I decided to look for other options, like the over the counter Unisom; it helps me to fall asleep sometimes and it's definitely a non-habit forming supplement. Exercises helped me greatly and I wont stop telling people that over and over and over...
It is really hard to deal with it all, and insomnia is like living in hell, so please be patient and perseverant. Sharing your issues with others is already a huge step, and you will overcome these issues and have your life under control. Keep fighting.
Respectfully,
CF17