It occurred to me today, that I don't know what emotions I feel. Strange at 61. the only emotions I seem to know are depressed and excited (hypo manic I guess). Don't know what it feels to be inlove, since all my relationships have been based on need to be loved. I know anger, and guilt, but that's about it. When I thought I was inlove it was heart pounding, heart being ripped out, fear of being left. Of course there was that honeymoon period, but that too was the high in me.

It's an all or nothing, black and white type of feeling, it's either really dark, or really light if that makes sense. I am hoping that with the proper therapy I will learn to identify the little ones that I don't understand.

Thanks for listening