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junkDNA · Jun 15, 2017, 02:45 PM

e-mails from my former T. please note the subtle manipulation. this is what therapy abuse looks like. its not black or white. its hidden between things like promises and hope.

this is majorly triggering. read at your own risk.

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i was in the hospital at this time. these are the last few emails he sent me. i think he was worried that i would tell. well i did

2/21/2010

Baby! I am really missing you. THinking about you much of the day, every day. Wishing you'd call - I don't have the numbers to call you

I hope you are feeling better. So much better! I imagine this is so very, very hard, frustrating, lonely.... I keep thinking about you so much.

It has apparently been really cold and snowy in ((location)) this past week. Amazingly, it was in the mid 60s here today - beautiful! Got some outside work done and it was so nice to be out. THe yard is muddy though - and there is still quite a bit of snow in the shaded back yard. Seems so strange when the day is so warm.

Another full and hectic week at work lies ahead. Ugh.

Sending you many warm thoughts, well wishes and much love. Would sure love to hear from you! Miss you tons, Me

2/13/2010

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I STILL can't stop missing you and longing for you. Just to hold you and cuddle with you would be fine. All night. All day. I'd like that.

I want to take a whole day again to be with you. Whenever you feel you are able and up to it. I will wait no matter how long. I promise.

Sweet dreams my beautiful LOVE! Me

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2/13/2010

Hi Baby, Me again. Ok, so now AI can't stop thinking about you and I want so much to talk to you - just hear your voice. I'm just really really missing you. I don't mean just sexually. I mean emotionally. I want to hold you. It feels like forever since I have seen you. To be honest, I really struggle when it is so long between visits. Tomorrow is Valentine's Day and YOU are who I want most to spend it with. YOU.

I've been doing a lot of thinking about your perception that all I care about sex. I can certainly understand how you might think that - at least sometimes. Honestly, you are the first and only woman I have ever had this much desire and physical and sexual attraction to and I think that is why. Seems like with past relationships, that part fades away after a few months. But with you it only gets stronger. I obviously don't hide that well. And another thing you need to know - the feelings - love, caring - those only seem to get stronger as well - even when I try to contain them. It is what I love most about this. I seem to be more and more and more... I just keep loving you - and yes, wanting you too - more and more. Not less. More. I'm a very physical, sexual, affectionate person. Always have been. And with you, it seems that that is never more true. I guess it gets on your nerves sometimes. I'm sorry about that. So often I feel like this little kid in a candy store around you - boundless excitement, arousal, passion, hunger, love, lust, all of it. So I think I understand how you would feel like all I want from you is sex. I had hoped that the last time I did see you that you felt that that wasn't true - that I care about and love you so much that I can just be there for you - holding you. Sitting quietly with you and that you would know that I love you.

I get scared trying to imagine what life would be like without you in it. I need you in mine. Always. So please know that I am here. I will always be here. Waiting for you as you always have for me. No matter how long it takes - PLEASE get well. And know I will be waiting to hold you again. Love, always, Me

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2/13/2010

Hi My Baby! Guess what? I masterurbated this morning to fantasies of you. It was wonderful! But nothing like the real thing of course! Wasn't it fun the other night to get each other so worked up over th phone - did you cum too? I hope so baby. I love that

I'm missing you. Lots. It is in teh 20s here and we got about 4" of snow last night. We were out with friends at the ((location)) Day School Auction. It was lots of fun and had the added element of adventure with the snow coming down so hard for so long. Basketball was cancelled this morning of course. I didn't drive to ((location)) for my meeting this morning. I cancelled. When we got home las tnight there were four cars in the ditch coming into our neighborhood. We're going sledding this afternoon. I think I might go to ((location)) tomorrow for the Boat Show with a friend of mine. That should be fun. I love boats! Two weeks from today I will be skiing in Utah

I can't wait!

I've been writing some other couples. There is a young and attractive couple in ((location)) that would like to meet. Erick and Mandy. I wish she had breasts as large as yours, but she is still cute enough. It would be fun to play again soon. Still working on couples for March trip

I hope you are feeling better my baby. Did your mom come? Did you get your car out? Or did you get more snow? Please write back and tell me everything. Know how much I love and miss you. Always! Me

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2/11/2010

Baby! OMG!!!!! I was just looking up pics of you that you have sent me. I'm soooo hard! Your enormous breasts melt me. I love the way the hang from your chest. They are so huge baby - and so spectacular. I love them so much! I am definitely gong to masturbate again to fantasies of you tonight. Are you still doing that baby? I hope so. I can't wait for next month so we can spend another whole weekend in bed ****ing. Each other AND other couples. I can't wait baby. I loved watching you mount and ride Gabe. and I loved watching him drill you in your butt too. And the way you took both of us at once for DP - OMG!!! You are soooooooooooooooo amazing baby! I want so much more of all of that

I wish I could fill your mouth with my cum right now.

I just finished playing Wii with the boys. Now I'm off to get them in bed. I love you and I am missing you TERRIBLY. Always, Me