I was hurt emotionally and physically and betrayed so bad by people I loved and people in authority that I find it near impossible to trust anyone anymore. It has gotten to the point where I do not know if I am imagining other people deceiving me or not. Even so called white-lies frustrate me to anger. I am in a crazy relationship now (big surprise, huh?). I cannot figure out if it is really good or really bad. We come from different cultures. She is Indian, but she might as well be from a different planet. It is a strange situation. It is much stranger than fiction. The Indians have taken deception and intrigue to a very high level. Very difficult for a person like me who craves communication, openness, directness and honesty.