that is such a good post..... yes Jinny.... I have certainly felt the way you do.. well the way I think that you do... and time makes it pass... and self nuture,,, yes... that word... is a path to feeling better.... my T is teaching me that now.. and sometimes.. when I go to bed.. out of nowhere.. I start sobbing... cause I am just letting all the pain out...

my "little" alter insisted on a stuffed monkey... and I thought.. no way.... but it does help.. it is a big old stuffed monkey and I hold onto it every night.. and it sooths me...