Thanks both. I have more questions - what makes someone have no friends, realistically?
Also, I feel like I could have certain friendships but for some reason I do not know how to keep the conversation going... In fact, how to really keep friends. I just cannot seem to get "close" to people and make a bond with them. It is very bad and I can't stand feeling so alone anymore. I don't know what the trouble is. I have fine self-image etc. but I just don't seem to know how to "be" with people and how to enjoy the time spent together. It is very strange. Also I fear they will ditch me after a few first meetings ... it never feels like I am really going somewhere, only that I have to "prove" myself to them. Please tell me how I can stop feeling this way and finally relax around peers? I really need this.
I mean, right now I am living in a flat with three other girls and they are all nice but I still have not made close friends... I just don't know how to go about this, how to do this?
I can't live my life like this, without close relationships. But I just don't know how to get close or really open up and make an emotional connection. I am always looking for approval or being careful instead. If I'm not, I frequently mess up. It's excruciating.
What do you think I'm doing wrong?