I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with the application process. I need three letters of recommendation and I only have two. I'm thinking of asking my coworker from my previous job but I'm afraid she will laugh at me when I tell her my intentions. She was there with me through all my severe episodes at work and very supportive but I'm afraid she will think I can't do this because of my own mental health. But that's what I though about my therapist too and she just encouraged me. So I don't know. I'm hoping to get it all together by July 1st for the fall deadline but I'm not sure I can. I don't mind waiting until spring if I have to but I'd like to get a jump on things. I'd like to be in classes in the fall. I don't know what I'll do with myself if I'm unemployed AND not in school. I'll go crazy.

I left work 15 minutes early today lol. I just couldn't sit there any longer. I knew I could sneak out and if anyone caught me I could lie and say I had an appointment. I just don't care because I'm already fired and there are only five more days left of school. So **** it.

I hope this works out for me. I don't want to spend $60000 and then end up not being able to handle the job. I'm nervous.