yeah...

currently i am not very trusting of these people that are supposed to be helping me...
i don't hold very much faith on their ability to help me or their understanding of whats going on with me...

i dont have a therapist anymore...

and the NP wants to believe in bipolar stuff...
i dont think she is very focused at all on anything trauma related...

i tried talking to her about dissociation, ptsd, borderline, she just said she thinks im more like bipolar II and didnt want to talk about any of the other stuff...

the therapist didnt think i was bipolar so i dunno why she didnt listen to her...

i hate this clinic i go to...

i just feel like giving up... it doesnt do me any good to talk to them...
it doesnt do me any good to research...

whats the point in anything...

i just want to reconnect with myself... im so disconnected i cant take it anymore...