Just wondering if anyone else dreads night time? I absolutely hate it at the moment because I know thats when it all begins. When my mind is left to do as it pleases. I guess I'm not always this way but recently its been bad. The thoughts start, the feelings and I can't get away from it until I fall asleep. I was doing fine for a bit but here I go again. Why? Lately ive got this deep deep yearning to just feel loved by my husband. I just want to spend time with him or for him to hold me and touch me. He works a lot. I dont work. I also have this yearning for companionship as well, like a best friend I guess. I don't have any friends anymore. I'm sort of isolated I guess. I haven't really had a lot of adult conversation outside of my husband in awhile. But these yearning feelings are more prominent at night. It causes the negative thoughts and SI. I know I have to deal with this every night and the dread just makes it worse. I'm just tired of being this way.