T,

I'm glad you apologized for your unfairness in scheduling someone in MY appointment slot. That makes me feel a lot better.

Now, I do have to say... I'm having medication compliance issues AGAIN. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm going to become manic or depressed soon if I keep this up.

I don't know why self sabotage like this. I don't feel guilty about my non-compliance decisions, either. It's bad, really bad.

I tend to do this self sabotaging thing when stable. I think I can get away with not taking my meds. What would you suggest? I don't want to spiral out of control again.