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I get an overwhelming sense of negative emotions surfacing. I feel tension in my upper back, shoulders, and neck. I can't think clearly. I feel like my head can only see black. I get a tingling sensation in my arm where I used to cut. And I can sense the instant relief that SI would give me.
But I haven't SI'd in over 6 years and have no intention of going back to it - I refuse to go back to that very dark place.
But I still get really strong urges periodically.
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn.
"If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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