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Jun 16, 2017, 05:35 PM
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Member Since: Jun 2017
Location: USA
Posts: 23
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My heart breaks for you, love! I understand completely! Growing up my dad was my EVERYTHING, without him I couldn't have gotten through my childhood. (Sadly he passed when I was a teenager) my mom was physically, emotionally and mentally abusive until I was 14. When I was 14 she tried to hit me in the face and I slammed my fist through the wall right by her head and said, "Today is the last day you ever put your hand on me." She never tried to physically abuse me after that. But, she kicked up her mental & emotional abuse double time. My brother died when I was 14 too. I was depressed, confused, overwhelmed, etc. She walked in my bedroom and saw me cutting (self harm) laughs and says, ""Your crazy, I'm going to get you locked up in the looney bin..hahaha". When I told her I was raped multiple times..it was my fault because my jeans were too tight. I have discussed all of this with her throughout the years and she's apologized but it's still very hard.
I have kids of my own and I made a vow that I would never make them feel the way she made me feel. I wish I could give you better advice. The only thing I can say is that back then I blamed myself. I thought there must be something I'm doing wrong, why can't she love me? It's not you. It's not me. It's them. There is a song by a group called Halestorm that I'm adding below..this is what ever daughter needs to hear. I hope it helps some. Take care, love. You are worthy! And you do matter!
Dear Daughter
Hold your head up high
There's a world outside
That's passing by
Dear Daughter
Never lose yourself
Remember that
You're like nobody else
Life throws you in
To the unknown
And you feel like you're
Out there all alone
These are words
That every girl should have a chance to hear
There will be love
There will be pain
There will be hope
There will be fear
And through it all year after year
Stand or fall I will be right here
For you
Dear Daughter
Don't worry about those stupid girls
If they try to bring you down
It's cause they're scared and insecure
Dear Daughter
Don't change for any man
Even if he promises the stars
And takes you by the hand
Life throws you in
To the unknown
And you feel like you're
Out there all alone
These are words
That every girl should have a chance to hear
There will be love
There will be pain
There will be hope
There will be fear
And through it all year after year
Stand or fall I will be right here
For you
Dear daughter
I was just like you
And just like me
You're gonna make it through
These are words
That every girl should have a chance to hear
There will be love
There will be pain
There will be hope
There will be fear
And through it all year after year
Stand or fall I will be right here
And after all I will be right here
For you
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