I just can't do it.

I am Jewish, but my husband is not. Every year since we have met I have loved to celebrate Christmas with him. I would literally be freaking out like a little kid on the day after Thanksgiving-- "Can we put up the tree yet?? Can we??" I was so excited last year because it was the first year we had our own house and could decorate the outside.

This year, nothing.

No tree. No lights. No decorations. I don't want it.