Dear R,

Five more sleeps...I'm already feeling that avoidance creeping in. For goodness' sake, don't let me. The only way I'm going to get through this is to get it all out. The only way I'm going to get it all out is to talk to you. It's taken me too long to be assured that I can trust you, I know....but I think I'm ready. I know I can't stall forever, and that frustrates me beyond belief. I feel like I should be able to be open with you about what happened and how it affected me...and still affects me.

I'm trying. I'm doing my best. I don't know whether there is anything else you...we can do to make this easier. I know I don't want to sweep it under the rug any longer.

I'm well aware that it's going to hurt, but I am going to need you to keep me in that place.

Thank you for your caring and support,

Lost