im fine as long as im not around stupid people

or as long as i dont start thinking about stuff but usually its people that trigger me into those states and i get stuck

the bad thing is that i have to be around stupid people like 24/7

so whadda I do!?
i like to get high, makes it easy to tolerate

i really dont know, but im trying to figure it out - hoping this new plan works out without me killing someone

im usually a really easy happy going person, i never get angry or lash out at anyone even when im in bad moods, so its not fair for everyone around me to keep pushing me over the cliff - makes me think that i dont have any mental illness at all, its just everyone around me thats bloody crazy as hell and needs to get the hell away from me

cant tell if its coming from the outside or the inside or both

but im pretty sure that its not bipolar for me... i dunno what my problem is, kinda given up on figuring it out really, just goin by what i feel... what i talked about with the therapist and what makes the most sense...

i am going to get back on the old meds though, just cause i was like chaotically stable atleast... i think if i just keep my **** it attitude and **** everyone attitude i'll be ok, its all getting on my nerves though, i need to get some coping skills asap; and some weed

i need a break