:* Peanut

I want to send him an email, we do that sometimes when I need to reach him, but I can't. If he reads my posts again, that would be great, but I won't ask him to again. Last time I underlined NEED and he read them..........I can't ask anymore.

I tried to reach my primary doc today, to see about changing my Prozac and he wasn't in the office........I'm batting a thousand again.

I alternate between being so depressed that I don't care, to scared that I won't see him again because I won't let myself go. The worst part is, if I don't show up - nothing will happen. A patient cancels an appt..........so what? I'm not trying to test him - like I told him, I would lose..........but I feel like I have lost already.

Never mind, I don't think I am making any sense here at all..........keep praying though, ok? Thanks, my friend.