I think there is no hurry Otherworlder92. It is good to talk to other people, perhaps a counselor too, maybe consider talking to your mom with a counselor as a referee for healthy expression. You are already doing the work you need to. Find some people who support you when you are feeling good about your life. My mom is an alcoholic and I never got that my biggest challenge was to open up to other people to find what I needed. Then you can get to being curious about what's going on for your mom and you can tell her what you wish for in life. This didn't work very well for me, I just kept trying to fix it by myself.