Saluki, I went to see a psych doc for the first time in 22 years just 2 days ago. I was soooooo nervous. I wrote some stuff down before I went, important points I wanted to get across because when I get nervous I can't remember a thing I want to say. It helped alot.

I hope your boyfriend will be supportive of you. My husband doesn't always understand the things I struggle with but he doesn't put me down for them. He does vent some frustration over it from time to time but I think you have to be forgiving of that because it is hard at times to live with people like us.

I understand about your father. When mine found out what my ex had been doing to me he did try to kill him. I just thank god there were no witnesses!!! The jerk got what he deserved in my opinion. But that's another story for another time.

Oh, and that is what T means.