We got back last night after an 8 hour drive. We had word waiting on us that my daughter had been awarded 4 scholarships to a big university 2 hours away that will pay for everything from room and board, tuition, even books. I am proud of and excited for her. I'm also very grateful because neither her father nor I could afford that college.

I know she has to fly and I'm learning to let go. I don't show it but I knew this was probably going to happen and I've tried not to think about it. It's really been hard for me depression and anxiety wise although I don't let on to her. I had bad dreams last night about it and woke with a pounding heart. Am I just a big mess or what?

My life has revolved solely around her to the point that my pdoc and tdoc are worried about what will happen when she leaves in less then a month. I don't know what I'm going to do. This less then a month thing came rather suddenly. My tdoc wants to see me once a week and my pdoc every four weeks with a call in once a week. I hope that's enough.

Hope everyone is ok and hugs to those that are struggling.