Hey guys. Havent posted on this board but i have on the others. Just starting to spiral down. Tomorrow I leave my moms and go home. (came to visit for almost two weeks now) shes "adopted" me and I know i have told you guys about her. My real parents died......TG! They never treated me well. My new mom is awesome! But i keep thinking about having to go home and have this overwhelming sense of dread. I am not working, hubs is only working part time, were barely making it. and i mean barely. No heat on. just space heaters. were in chicago so its kinda cold this time. Bills piling up and the fear of, well "i HAVE to deal" now is spiling on top of me. I dont want to go home, where i am depressed everyday, and have to "work at it" to be happy.

Im just happy here. and its starting to go down. again.....im grateful for the second chance at somebody who actually loves me. which not many get. But fearful of going back home to "deal with life"......its one of those days/weeks where i dont want to think. KNow what i mean?

Thanks for letting me ramble. You all have a good nite

Colleen