So I have a lot going on in my head right now. Its more prominent at night. I guess because I'm better distracted in the day. I dread every night because I know I can't escape my own head and its hard to go to sleep with so much going on in there. I have a lot of SI and some times it cause HI because I can't leave certain ppl behind. Last night my emotional and mental pain was causing physical pain and the SI was a little more intense than usual. (*TRIGGER*) I just kept thinking that I could just take all the meds and go to sleep and be at peace. So I found a Crisis Text line and I text them. It was kind of weird though, I don't know what I was expecting but it kind of reminds me of the way my old therapist would ask me about how I feel and why and what I need in order to feel better. They also kind of tell you how they think you feel which was pretty accurate. It helped. It lessened the thoughts and I fell asleep texting them. If anyone here ever needs help getting to sleep or just to feel better and talk to someone without having to call you can text "Start" to 741741