To be honest, I don't know. I know if I can't, it will be all on me. My T has done the things I wanted from her around the rupture. She has allowed it to stay about me (at least when she is with me). I don't know if I can fully put my hand back in hers like before. I feel like I have to hold back with her.

I watched this video about vulnerability and it has helped starting me to open up again. (thanks to someone posting this on a different thread)

So - can I be so vulnerable and get through my shame to let her back in again? I don't know. My pattern is to walk away at this point, so I'm working against my pattern.

Thanks for asking.