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Originally Posted by x_blessed
Hi dshantel, I know EXACTLY how you feel and is very relieved to see that I am not alone. I'm only 22 and me and boyfriend both still live with our parents. I work a 8-5 and take classes to pursue a nursing career and my bf works ALOT, always have. He wants to one day be the sole provider (saving for our first place) and I can't blame him for that. But at night, i gets sooo lonely and only want the attention from him. Much like you i also yearn for his presence, his touch, just to feel loved.
I have just been diagnosed with bipolar disorder so what I use to describe as 'temper tantrums' that I couldn't control are actually mixed episodes of manic and depression. So while in my depressed state, if I feel rejected by him in any way (including having to work) I cry uncontrollably. And I'm currently unmediated. I feel like a burden on him or others sometimes but now that i know l can't control it , it's not so bad. But because of this my nights are so dreadful right now!
Thanks for sharing!! You may not react the same but it still feels a lot better knowing I'm not alone. 
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You're definitely not alone either and thanks for commenting. Our situations seem very similar. I often feel rediculous for how I feel but I can't help it. I wish I wasn't this way but in trying to learn to accept it and just deal with it. Im also currently unmedicated. I still have a hard time admitting that I am in or had and episode. It feels like im just making excuses.
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Dx: Bipolar 2, Anxiety disorder, Adjustment disorder with mixed anxious mood.
Medicine: 40mg Latuda, 35mg HydroXYZ
Past Meds: 20mg Latuda, 150mg Seroquel XR, 50mg Topiramate (Trokendi XR), 25mg Vraylar, 25mg buspirone
 You live and you learn
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