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Originally Posted by dshantel
You're definitely not alone either and thanks for commenting. Our situations seem very similar. I often feel rediculous for how I feel but I can't help it. I wish I wasn't this way but in trying to learn to accept it and just deal with it. Im also currently unmedicated. I still have a hard time admitting that I am in or had and episode. It feels like im just making excuses.
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It's definitely something to get used to, I'm coming around on accepting it. Being diagnosed actually helped me to understand why I behave, feel, and react the way I do. Before being diagnosed I had an even harder time trying to understand why I couldn't get myself to act differently with situations. I felt crazy! Sad when everything's happy, happy and hyperactive when things are sad or serious. Very frustrating. I can relate to the whole making excuses things because I honestly made up excuses and blamed everything and everyone past and present to why I was depressed, lonely, feeling unloved or less than, because I couldn't explain my crying spells/depression. Or why I was mean and acting differently because I was manic. Of course I didn't know I was bipolar at the time but I understand. And I also wish I wasn't because I worry about my future, relationship with others, and how people view me because I can't control it.
Do your husband understand or try to understand what your going through?