I may be bipolar. But this I do know. I binge on downers like xanax and ambien. I've been using drugs of some kind for most of the last 8 years. Do all kinds terribly stupid things. Then times like now I can't believe that was me. I don't understand. Is it just that I'm less anxious and depressed right now? Or does this sound like a bipolar thing? I've certainly gone manic on weed and antidepressants before but that might be to expected. I'm feeling low or anxious pretty much all the time though.