thanks everyone. I did write her a note and told her what I think I would like to work on. thought it was gonna be easy at the appointment, but she dropped a bomb on me and I have really been out of it and hurting from stress and anxiety in my chest I do have heart disease and costacongitis which can feel like heart attack. I'm taking my pain meds and carry my nitro pills and patch with me I was finally diagnosed with MPD / DID for after years of therapy. My primary doctor knows I have them because he has had conversations with one or two of them. I have 5 alters left now and then she tells me they changing my diagnosed to Borderline, and that I don't have alters. That floored me. She says that DID alters do not know of each other and don't interact with each other. She doesn't have the training for working with DID people, but she says she knows of it because she thinks HER mom is DID, because she would have a different name for a couple days, and when change don't know what she did earlier. Question: Can someone heal from past abuses and emotion walls and mask with out going to therapy? Thanks in advance