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Old Jun 19, 2017, 07:56 AM
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My main abuser liked to take photos of me in sexual situations he put me in as a very little child. I only remember seeing one as a teenager, and it freaked me out. It has taken me decades to get used to having my photo taken by people I don't know, but with the advent of selfies, I've become more comfortable.

What's still hard for me is seeing photos & Youtube vids, when people (in non-sexual situations) suddenly become sexual. I enjoy watching fashion try ons and hauls, but lately I've noticed more and more of them have turned sexual when they weren't before. Example - a woman showing a pretty top she bought, suddenly revealing her boobs or bra as part of the show. These things trigger me like crazy - the same movements and ways of "flashing" that I was made to do. I'm usually okay if I know it's about bikinis or bras, or if I'm warned beforehand. I'm also okay with straight-up erotic pics if I know what's coming. I just wish these sudden images didn't trigger me so much, especially as my memories of that period of abuse are hazy (age 3 -8) and I'd like them to stay that way. Trigger warnings mean a lot to me, but they seem a mystery to most non-abused people.
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