I used drugs at the age of 12 often to fill the void of emptiness. Many don't realize that alcohol is a hard drug. It's socially accepted. Alcohol is a cleaner or disinfectant but when taken in small% gets you high and many people use it to cope with what you experience and often leads to other drug use. I can't drink and don't I can't get enough and also will seek other drugs. I have not used drugs in 25 yrs. Although I consider the medication I have to take a hard drug. You are just on the edge of entering in a hell of a problem if you use drugs too fill this void. The void will never get enough and you will become it's slave. I hope this will help deter your thoughts from drugs. I started a new hobby to help myself. I was also ordered by the court to go too a drug treatment center.