Dear Dr S,

I don't think I will be able to tell you everything that happened for me around your vacation. I think it is a bit odd how there is this concept that I (we) need to learn how to sit with something when we have all these secrets inside that we sit with constantly. I don't think things will ever be the same between us again. Maybe I'm being fatalistic or catastrophizing it all. How long do I have to feel this way before we can say - nope not fatalistic, realistic; things really are broken? I mean really, do I have to permanently up my antidepressant to feel whatever enough to care if we meet because whenever I take only my prescribed amount, I don't care if I see you or not.
-me