My father said once "life is a b%^ch, and then you marry one"
As a child I practically forced him to get a job. Because he would annoy me by asking what I wanted to be and go on about such and such is going to be a music teacher, so and so is going to be this....an I would lose it, and be like "so your going to pay for me to go to university sitting on your backside huh??"
He would retort " can't work if you are disabled." And I would sigh at how easy he seemed to have given up. I even thought he meant me at one point having something wrong with me, as he was so confusing.
I am sure he lied to me about having a brother in Norway and a sister in my hometown. He did write to someone as I snooped out the letters but he was a little secretive. Story of my whole family. "skeletons in the closet" he would say.
My step-dad would make fun of my biological father, and say to me I was simple because I was "happy with a bag of crisps." In truth I was very mature and I acted like it was ok, that he drove something that looked like it belonged in back to the future or dr who.
I am glad I got to know where I came from and I am also assured that the time was right to sever the ties and choose sides. I wish my mum and father never used me as a pawn.
My mum played this stupid game evry single year where I had to ask my father to buy me a school bag and other things. I would go over and over what to say in my head, dreading it