<font color="purple">So yeah, I made the mistake of telling my mother that lately I've been feeling depressed. This is a mistake because she tells this to my father. I have...alot of difficulties trying to talk to him, so when he brought it up, it's not like I spilled my heart out or anything (or told him about the incident when I started pulling my hair out with tweazers) so he basicly gaveme the message of "Well, okay, that's your choice...but I REALLY THINK THAT IT COULD JUST BE TEEN PROBLEMS AND YOU OVER OVER-ESTIMATING YOUR PROBLEMS" well, not in all caps, but once you de-vague-ify it, that's what it boils down to.

It's just frustrating now, because I'm begining to doubt myself. What if it really IS just a little bit of teen problems, and I just created all that hype for nothing? I don't think I could stand the thought of making myself look like some over-dramatic, hypochondriac, idiot.

..of course, I don't think pulling hair out with tweasers falls under the classification of "generic teen issues" but that was an isolated incident- so I wonder if all this crap has any meaning to it.

I'm also worring if the guy/girl I'll be seeing as a therapist will see it like my father does, because I just have a hard time opening up to people (unless of course, it is online) and that maybe I DO have real problems that are dissmissed too quickly.

I think my dad has issues too that are very similiar to mine, but he's the kind of person who would just brush them off and never seek any kind of help for them.

Oh, and this would be a good time to mention that my concious normaly has this nifty little ability to console itself. (internal therapy?) of course now I try to do that and my internal therapist puts me on hold because it doesn't know what the hell is going on either. (which is actualy kind of sad because it's the voice of reason fo well...everything)

I'm really hating this feeling of self-doubt when before I seemed so conident that something was definately not right with me. </font>