i just thought that it would be clearer by now...

as to what it is...

and the symptoms clearer too...

but the symptoms are worse

and its destroying me, my life

i just want to hide away from everyone because im not able to hide the symptoms any more as to before i was able to cover them up... now i cant and i dont know why

i cant hide the confusion, i cant hide when i get hit with the depression out of no where, i cant hide the strange emptiness, lack of content that i am, i cant hide..

what if i fall into a coma...

because thats what it feels like its coming to...