a few of you know that i had have vertigo attacks since september, where i couldn't toterate moving my head without wanting to puke. it has gotten worse to the point where my eyeballs are wagging (going back and forth), and i can't control it.

i had a balance testing done at my ear doc last week. i just got the results yesterday from my ear doc. he told me that he hardly sees the results like i have. he says that it's not my inner ears that are the problem. it's my brain. my brain is sending abnormal signals to my inner ears.

great. now what? i have to see a neurologist. probably will need an e.e.g. test and, maybe, an mri scan of my brain. you think i have enough after already been through all that craziness over a year ago? huh, my hubby's like "omg, more bills to pay through our teeth."

i feel like i'm such a freak. i keep popping up with medical issues, no matter what i do. i so much want to curl up and hide in a hole somewhere and never come out again. ever. i can't take anymore weird stress. i don't need to have my life get stranger than fiction. it's happened before, and my pdoc had to put me on medication. ugh, it's no way for any one to go through, especially when many docs don't know how to deal with disabled people well. i don't need to be standing with one foot in this life and the other foot in the afterlife because it gets way too weird that way.