im not hating on doctors

im just hating that it seems the majority of the time doctors will claim to understand when they dont... when they dont ask the right questions... when they dont relate... when they dont connect... they just ship you in and out and there is no real help

im happy, i have been happy all day, i have dealt with a lot of people all day
its been fine

my symptoms are cool, im not all the way here but im never all the way here

i find myself disconnecting and wanting to withdraw...

start feeling paranoid like people are talking about me... like how i am not talking all of a sudden... how i seem to not be myself... how something has happened to me...
how i seem disconnected... by i tried to tell myself that they probably arent thinking those things... but i happen to know from past experience that it has happened before that they were thinking those things... so i tried my best to continue pulling myself out of those disconected states, and engage in the crowd...

i have done well... saphris is a strong medication and i would suggest anyone that is about to take it do so with care... obviously for me it was not a good one... i dont have to be a doctor to tell such.... i would only take it for severe mania and schizophrenia...