You DO NOT seem emotionally shallow and I have seen you reach out to people and ocassionally say some very sweet things. Your replies to some of my posts were also appreciated.

I acknowledge that people who come from functional homes with resources to help their children get started (for instance, help pay for college or a car) do have it easier but they also have to "find their way" in life. Our choices (and, unfortunately, our parents/grandparents choices) effect us.

It is harder to make connections when you are struggling financially. Until a person figures out how to "make a living" they just don't have the time and resources to explore connections with others. When I was younger, I met my friends through school and work. Now that I am older and am out of school and unemployed, I am thankful that I am married and also try to maintain connections to my children, siblings, dad and inlaws. Creating a family is one of the main ways people find connections in this world. I know that coming from a dysfunctional family makes it hard for you but if you can figure out how to make a living perhaps you can eventually find a partner that will help you feel more connected. I am sorry you life is such a struggle. I am NOT saying that you are not in a tough situation.