Last session I told T that I don't trust therapy to fix my problems; I believe that only my own effort can save me.

Why would I waste time explaining my problems to T, when I could be taking concrete action towards my goals?

She said she doesn't quite agree, she can see things that I wasn't seeing. So I asked what she saw, but she said it didn't matter, that I should do what I feel is right for me.

I'm afraid T is frustrated that she can't help me unless I attend sessions.
I'm so attached because she's been my T for 9 years, but I hardly ever see her anymore because I'm too busy fixing my own problems.