I've started rowing back down this stream of self abuse a frightening amount the last week. From not eating, to depriving myself of sleep, to starting cutting again..

A tiny part of my mind wants someone to notice, to actually care, to want to help. A huge part of me is still in agreement about shutting everyone and everything out.

It was pointed out to me today by someone just how much damage I could do to myself if i wasn't careful.. But, I don't care about myself any more, so i struggle to see why this would even be a thing for me to consider..

I never thought i would be back here again, in this place, in this mind.