I find myself drinking more than usual just to cope.....

my mother is coming for my wedding all the way from another continent, I don't want to end up in the ER again like the other Sunday

I want to keep it together...

Alcohol helps...

I don't want to do this but I just don't know how to stop my chaos without alcohol when I feel like this

I am such a failure

Is it normal to drink around 6 shots of vodka a day? Am I imagining that this is a problem? I am not sure anymore

I take pride in not having a substance abuse....is this a substance abuse? If it happens some weeks at the time but not always? Should I tell my doctor?