My life's work has been to help youth in crisis, youth with mental illness. To help youth and families cope. 2 years ago I myself, became very ill with schitzo affective disorder. I was very parinoid and unstable. I began thinking my co workers were out to get me. I had a breakdown on the job. I realized I couldn't even help the youth because I was to sick. This broke my heart and I soon lost my job. Up until recently, I thought it was all a conspiracy by the staff. I realized my reality was highly scewed. I recently found a great dr. Whom started me on Seriquill and explained my dx. if the Doc and I can get me stabilized, I may be able to work again. I know I'm not ready yet as the littlest thing can send me into a snowball. When did y'all know you were ready for work?