I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I have bipolar II as well and more days than not it's pure ****. I'm fortunate that I have one person in my life who really gets it in my family and I am still in contact with those I was IP with. They get it. Having someone truly not get it is frustrating and disheartening. You can always come to PC to vent, or for encouragement, advice or support. Do you have a tdoc you can see to help you process some of this? Could you try to get in with your pdoc a little bit earlier, maybe on an emergency basis? We're here to support you. Best wishes.