Sorry if this is posted in the wrong place

I used to attend AA and had a rotten time there - all the groups were dominated by straight white men. As a black bisexual nonbinary person, I had a hard time being heard, plus the overt racism I encountered was off the scale. I went to an LGBT AA group once, and it was dominated by white gay men. It was just as bad as the regular groups.

I was so put off by my experiences with AA that it took me years to attend Overeaters Anonymous. However, that has been a great place for me, and I've had some amazing results there. I've only had 1 racist experience there, so that's miles better than what AA was like.

The problem I'm having now is that I really want to drink again. I've been sober for 4 years, and I know drinking would screw me up badly, both emotionally and physically (I'm diabetic). I am afraid of going back to AA. I honestly feel like it would do me more harm than good, but I don't know what else to do or where to go. In the UK there are acute alcohol services, but very little for those who have been sober for a while.

PS - I know that only 1 racist incident is nothing to celebrate, but that's the society I live in. I wish it could be better, but it's not.