today has been really hard. I just got back from a camping trip last night that was already kind of stressful (a big group, people I don't know incredibly well, had to take our beloved dog to an out of town vet while there, long drive etc. etc.). Had an awful dream that I raged at this girl I know and then felt incredibly guilty afterwards. Got into work and immediately ****ed up my boss' website REALLY BAD and then as that was happening got an email from Apple and discovered my account had been hacked and someone was buying stuff with my credit card. THEN I ate some lunch that I have since convinced myself will give me food poisoning (total terrible lifelong emetophobe here) and I'm so anxious and upset I don't know what to do with myself.

I know none of this is actually that bad, I'm just feeling really overwhelmed and panicked. And then whenever I feel this way it's just another reminder that I haven't properly dealt with my mental health issues, that I'm basically white-knuckling it, which stresses me out even more. Sorry, just needed to vent :/